Apparently, i can’t upload pics to this. Ok, fine. I’ll do links.
And, I also can’t have more than 3 batches on Flickr, which I’ve already got. So, I’m doing my best!!
Here ya go. This is why I’ve avoided unpacking so long. I’m so overwhelmed by this visual, that I immediately go in my room and hide:
*wonders if this will work now*
I’m a pretty simple gyrl. I like happiness in my life, and I enjoy people. All kinds of people. I am something different to many people, but my many “personalities” do not mean I am trying to hide myself. Rather, I am a person who enjoys many things and I adapt well to the things that people need from me.
What I want from life is to enjoy my life, live it well, live it in a peaceful manner, and to bring happiness to those around me in the things I do and say.
Something that has been brought up to me recently is that in many of my online hotspots, my relationship status is listed as “taken.” This has, I believe, recently changed, although that has nothing to do with my flirty manner. I am always flirty, moreso when I have people that cavort with me. Whether or not i am in a relationship has nothing to do with the way I respond to people and converse online. It has little to do with the way i conduct myself in a person-to-person situation, either, since I do not go hopping from one person’s bedroom to another.
I hug a lot in person. I link arms with people. I hold hands with my friends when we’re talking or walking. It is something i have always done, and it is a way to connect with the people i care about. It doesn’t stop because I’ve given my heart to a person to hold.
Recently, my S.O. has been … missing. We go through this every other year or so, for a few months. This time, though, I believe I have lost my patience, and I do think that if he decides to start calling/texting/emailing/IMing again, I will not be receptive in the “everything is ok” way. I think this time I will pick up where we left off, but keep it on a friends-only basis. The fact that he lives 2600 miles from me makes a serious relationship difficult enough. But he’s afraid of the commitment I require before picking up and moving, and I refuse to change my demands in that respect. I’m not asking for a marriage proposal. Just an I-love-you without restraint. An open heart, and a promise to try hard to work things out. I deserve that much, and have not yet gotten it. I love him, but I cannot sacrifice my security and safety of being near people that love me to move to a state so far away without knowing that I will be loved in return once I get there.
This is all a very pared-down version of our story. It is long, complicated, and difficult to express. Suffice to say that I love him, want to be with him … am pretty sure he loves me and wants to be with me … but I know his fear of being crushed a second time in his life is hindering his ability to open up to me in the ways that I need.
Thanks for listening. I will try to correct the “taken” statuses to lessen the confusion of the people around me.
Peace.Love.Happiness.
DevylGyrl
I promised my sweet friend (and online-adopted-daughter) Hunee that I would share my recipe of Mole (pronounced moh-lay) with her. However, two or three other people asked too, so I decided to share it via blog! How lucky are you? ~smiles~
All kidding aside, if you like Mexican dishes and a little heat, you’ll like this.
I have been told by my great friend Stalking Happiness that this is not a traditional “Mole” recipe, but is more like another dish (I believe she called it pipián, which is also mentioned in the Mole Sauce Wiki). I’ve found though, this depends on where in Mexico you are from. My family’s Mole recipe lacks the sweet, sugary, chocolate flavor. I don’t do sweet chocolate sauce on chicken or pork. It just isn’t appealing to me. I’ve always added the chocolate to the recipe, just in smaller doses I guess. This sauce is a warm, highly seasoned, hearty sauce. I hope you enjoy!
Note: Our recipe calls for plain “chili powder” and then also a branded chili powder called “Mexene“. The Mexene is basically a chili powder blend with cumin & other spices in it - it is far superior to most brands that we have found. So, try your best to find it, but if you can’t, just use another kind that has similar ingredients (you can see the ingredient list on their website).
I hope you enjoy the recipes.
MEXICAN RICE
What you need:
Hint: I also add about a teaspoon of Mexene to this recipe, and toss it into the blender with the other seasonings. 
How to Prepare:
In case you didn’t notice, it is imperative to AVOID the temptation to stir!!
What You Need:
Hint: The amount of Mexene you use should correspond to the amount of heat you like in your food. I use a whole small bottle or a 3/4 of the larger bottle.
How to Prepare:
Add water to thin the sauce if needed (it should have a thick, gravy-like consistancy).
Simmer for 30 minutes.
I really hope you enjoy the recipe. It takes a while to cook, but it is SO worth the wait!
