Baby S. :(

Posted by: Devyl Gyrl

Baby S had to go in for a blood transfusion today. This was normal.

I just received a phone call from B. I was quite surprised, as I had not heard from C since before the transfusion appointment. I immediately felt a boulder drop in the bottom of my stomach. B was in tears, near hysterical.

The doctors ran a few preliminary blood tests, just as a precautionary measure. She was immediately checked back into the oncology floor of the hospital.

Baby S’s AFP’s have jumped from 60 to 177.

This is horrendous, horrible, awful, tragic news.

Her cancer has returned.

We are waiting to hear the official news, waiting for the blood tests to come back.

We are, in a nutshell, praying desperately for a miracle. Because the ONLY thing that would make her levels jump that high is a return of the cancer. Liver regeneration does NOT cause that much of a jump.

If her cancer has truly returned, because it has returned while Baby S is on chemotherapy, she will have less than 10% chance of survival.

I feel like a fucking bitch for being upset over losing my job. We might lose Baby S, who is far more valuable than any money in the world. I have to rush home and get my daughter’s project started, then I am going to the hospital.

For anyone who believes in such, please pray.

Anyone else who cares … please think positively and send Baby S positive thoughts and vibes. She needs every ounce of everything that anyone can spare.

20 Responses to “Baby S. :(”

  1. sorenj Says:

    done done and done!!!

  2. Tara R. Says:

    Oh Devyl…. that seriously sucks. I will be praying and asking everyone I can to join in.

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  3. Steven Buehler Says:

    Can’t even begin to imagine what that is like. Hang in there, we’re praying for lil’ S here in central Florida.

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  4. pritcharddesign Says:

    Many prayers to you and your family!

  5. AlisonL Says:

    Praying….and here if you need me.

  6. Miss Attitude Says:

    I’m so sorry to hear the horrible news. I will keep Baby S in my prayers.
    And you should not feel bad for being upset about losing your job. It’s natural to be upset, and it doesn’t take away from what you feel for Baby S. It probably just put things in perspective. I’m sorry you’re having such a rough time. *HUGS*

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  7. planetKnit Says:

    I am so sorry for all of this awful news! Prayers are winging your way. (((devyl)))

  8. NotAMeanGirl Says:

    Prayers going up for all of you. And you are NOT a Bitch… your concerns are real and valid when it comes to providing for yourself and your tween honey. Yes… Baby S is important. Yes… her health IS a bigger issue… but you count too. Don’t forget that. Love you

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  9. topsurf Says:

    Praying…praying…praying….praying….praying, will not stop! I love you and is praying for your whole family.

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  10. New York Jew Says:

    You have been an extraordinary friend to this lovely family in their sadness and trouble. We try our best to be as supportive as we can be to you. Love, Peter.

  11. A_NYRican Says:

    I will continue to pray for you all. I have never stopped praying for this angel and all of you connected to her.

  12. fgirl Says:

    Keeping Baby S, you, and the family in my thoughts and prayers.

  13. bronsont Says:

    I’ve had baby S and her doctors in my prayers, but will continue during this time of increased need.

  14. TwistedKnitster Says:

    Praying for Baby S, You and Your Family. Stay positive and don’t be afraid to lean on those who care.

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  15. Becster Says:

    Oh dear god, I’m so sorry. I will pray as hard as I can and hold you all close to my heart.

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  16. Justene Says:

    Observing 5 minutes of silence before I rest tonight…She is an amazing being…may she continue to shed her light and beauty on all of us. Gentle hugs to you…

  17. perpstu Says:

    Prayers are going up at warp speed for all of you. I’m only a phone call away if you need a voice….I love you!!!

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  18. Fear and Parenting in Las Vegas Says:

    I send hugs and prayers and all my love. I can’t imagine what you’ve been through this week. All I can say is that trust things will resolve for the best.

  19. Devyl Gyrl Says:

    You guys are all incredibly wonderful. Thank you so much. It is amazing coming here to so many positive and loving thoughts. xoxo

  20. Veribatim Says:

    Oh hun, I’m so sorry. I will pass on Baby S’s conditions to my prayer chain.

    Much love and prayer,
    Kat

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