Random Thoughts and Musings

Lil Lady is, in my opinion, an amazing daughter. And, really, my opinion is the only one who counts. *Grins* Anyway. She has not done anything to bring on this post - there was not a sweet moment or an outrageous moment. As I sit her, alone for the evening, I realize: I do not feel kid-free. I do not feel as though I have a moment to breathe since she is away for the night with her uncle and cousin. I do not even feel like there are things I should be doing now that I have some time without her.

This is not because I am stressed out or have five million things to do anyway. No.

I feel this way because she makes life so easy all the time. We have our routines, which are not routine at all. Sometimes we stay together in the living room and do things together, other days she goes to her room for some alone time and I do not see her for hours. No matter which route we choose, she is not ever intrusive, rowdy, or annoying (except in little snippets of moments … they hardly count, every PERSON has those - whether they be a child or an adult).

I do not have to necessarily schedule my life around her because she has ALWAYS been more than capable of handling herself. As soon as she was of a legal age, I was able to trust her alone in our homes, to take care of her chores, do her homework, and not get into anything that was off-limits. I could trust her to stick to limits on snacks, stay off the phone, keep the television off until her homework was completed.

There have been exceptions to this, of course. I find, unfortunately, she is easily influenced by her friends and cousins. I hope as she gains a little more confidence, this will happen less. I cannot even say it has been a “problem,” because I tend to forgive and forget fairly easily, unless a situation happens repetitively.

So, while Lil Lady is gone, I will go about my business as always … except I’ll watch fewer shows because we enjoy watching them together. And I will have to feed the cats and scoop the litter. All well-worth the knowledge that she is having one last summer fling weekend before school starts!

So, like sand in the hourglass of time, I drift continuously through my day, with no change in speed or direction.